Wednesday, December 03, 2008
Things will nvr be the same again
Yest sth happened that made me super emo tt i cant sleep!!! its the usual gathering for the 4 of us for drinks. Venue: tamp park. I thought this would be another usual drinking, tok cok session... I was wrong, very wrong. Awaiting me was a stunning news, one of us is wooing the gal tt i had been trying to woo the whole sem! The 4 of us was such best of frens. I couldnt possibly go up to him and punch or hit him rite.... i couldnt bring myself doing tt as i realli treat the 3 of them as my very very good frens tt no secrets are kept btw us. we can say anything we want without holding back. But all tt is abt to change... tt's wat my heart tells me...
2am yest reach hm... mind in state of confusion/dilemma... i always tot tis kind of things only happen in muveeees. well, I was wrong abt tt too. Haa... i cant slp... msn-ed peijie who told me: its easy to find someone who u can live happily with but its hard to find someone who u cannot live without. i guess i haven reach the stage whereby i cant live without her. but i find it hard to digest the fact tt i am gg to fight over a gal with one of my best frens. OMG! i can tell everyone tt its a sucky feeling. I HATE this feeling. its making me HO M HOI SUM. i didnt know y it's become lik tis. mayb i was too slow in wooing the gal.... mayb i should not have get her to that party b4 the exams where she met my rival cum best fren... haa .. rival... best fren... such conflicting roles. such irony.
aftermath: i didnt know how to face that rival cum best fren, seriously. wat type of mindset shd i have when i c him. i dunno... realli dunno... but i also realli realli dunwan this grp of 4 of us to break. i dunwan the other 2, esp the one who intro the gal to me and my rival to feel bad abt this whole episode... how i wish tis whole drama didnt happen! but.... it did ><
i got imagine wat will happen in future when i cant slp thru-out yest. what if they gotten together? i can feel my heart will be so painful even by imagining. but i guess i can at least bring myself to wish her Wing Yun Han Fou. what if i and her gotten together? i can feel my heart wont feel tt good either coz i am very scared of losing a best fren. argh! Y is this happening to me .... makes me no mood to do anything... and when i c the other 2, i had to appear i had gone over the whole episode coz i do not want them to worry abt me... i had to appear as usual at hm even i had such a lousy mood... its hard... ngo ho gui .... zan hai ho gui ... but still i cant slp.... wanted to slp at 1130pm but its 2hrs liao ...
i am still treating him as a good fren, tt'y i am still having tis sucky feeling. i rem i said to the one who intro the gal to me that i dunwan this grp, the 4 of us to disintegrate... but say is on thing, doing is really another thing. till now, i still dunno how to face him .... i dunno ...
i only know: Things will nvr be the same again.......................................
QQ
Yest sth happened that made me super emo tt i cant sleep!!! its the usual gathering for the 4 of us for drinks. Venue: tamp park. I thought this would be another usual drinking, tok cok session... I was wrong, very wrong. Awaiting me was a stunning news, one of us is wooing the gal tt i had been trying to woo the whole sem! The 4 of us was such best of frens. I couldnt possibly go up to him and punch or hit him rite.... i couldnt bring myself doing tt as i realli treat the 3 of them as my very very good frens tt no secrets are kept btw us. we can say anything we want without holding back. But all tt is abt to change... tt's wat my heart tells me...
2am yest reach hm... mind in state of confusion/dilemma... i always tot tis kind of things only happen in muveeees. well, I was wrong abt tt too. Haa... i cant slp... msn-ed peijie who told me: its easy to find someone who u can live happily with but its hard to find someone who u cannot live without. i guess i haven reach the stage whereby i cant live without her. but i find it hard to digest the fact tt i am gg to fight over a gal with one of my best frens. OMG! i can tell everyone tt its a sucky feeling. I HATE this feeling. its making me HO M HOI SUM. i didnt know y it's become lik tis. mayb i was too slow in wooing the gal.... mayb i should not have get her to that party b4 the exams where she met my rival cum best fren... haa .. rival... best fren... such conflicting roles. such irony.
aftermath: i didnt know how to face that rival cum best fren, seriously. wat type of mindset shd i have when i c him. i dunno... realli dunno... but i also realli realli dunwan this grp of 4 of us to break. i dunwan the other 2, esp the one who intro the gal to me and my rival to feel bad abt this whole episode... how i wish tis whole drama didnt happen! but.... it did ><
i got imagine wat will happen in future when i cant slp thru-out yest. what if they gotten together? i can feel my heart will be so painful even by imagining. but i guess i can at least bring myself to wish her Wing Yun Han Fou. what if i and her gotten together? i can feel my heart wont feel tt good either coz i am very scared of losing a best fren. argh! Y is this happening to me .... makes me no mood to do anything... and when i c the other 2, i had to appear i had gone over the whole episode coz i do not want them to worry abt me... i had to appear as usual at hm even i had such a lousy mood... its hard... ngo ho gui .... zan hai ho gui ... but still i cant slp.... wanted to slp at 1130pm but its 2hrs liao ...
i am still treating him as a good fren, tt'y i am still having tis sucky feeling. i rem i said to the one who intro the gal to me that i dunwan this grp, the 4 of us to disintegrate... but say is on thing, doing is really another thing. till now, i still dunno how to face him .... i dunno ...
i only know: Things will nvr be the same again.......................................
# posted by QQ @ 2:17 PM 
